You Can Accept Failure, No?

Pagi tadi aku jumpa lecturer Organic Chem aku. 

Takde niat pun nak pergi. Just follow classmates yang nak kan confirmation whether they’re pass or not so that they can decide whether to have short semester for their last semester subject or not.

 Again. Tak teringin pun nak tengok markah exam hari tu.

If on the examination day there’s nothing in my head (blank), then what do you expect?

Keluar je dari examination room, I texted my mom “Mak, sorry if kena extend one more sem sbb soalan tadi susah gila. I can’t answer most of it.”

Then she replied, “Sokay, as long as you did your best.”

Smile, but with frustration.

Pass with bad result, or fail?

Apparently I got what I’ve expected.

Not so-so. But the very bad one. Yeah, you heard me.

The hardest part to accept is most classmates pun having that difficulties. Down. Frustrated. Heart broken. So on and so on.

Tapi…we human learn from mistakes right? Fail one or two subjects is not the end of the world. Lantak p la apa orang nak kata, they’re not even in our shoes. Not even once.

I think I can handle this. Degree dulu tak pernah rasa failure, tak pernah rasa repeat paper.

You express your sorrow, but it doesn’t make any difference. Try to accept those difficulties. Anything, everything happened for a reason. Because Allah knows best. The less you care, the less you get hurt. Ni cara aku sedapkan diri sendiri. And also the ignorant thingy. Heartless.

Again. It’s not the end of the world although organic chemistry is killing me.

Semoga akan ada kesudahan yang baik buat kita.

Anthem [Hlovate] - Part 2

Alhamdulillah I’ve finished Anthem baru tadi. 

Start with Part 1 hari tu tapi takde cakap banyak pun.

Tapi kan tak tau celah mana nak mula. *tarik nafas dalam-dalam*

Mula-mula nak cakap, CJ’s still ranking paling atas kot. Versus dengan Anthem tak banyak beza. Ada. Sikit.

A bit funny bila aku tak perasan langsung ada watak Rooftop Rant dalam kisah ni. I should notice it from the beginning but towards the end when Trisy gives those two graphic novels to Dash, haaa that moment I realized. Ha ha ha. No wonder la that name; Jade the cartoonist seems familiar. Hoho.

Silam and selepas silam. Both ada ceritanya yang tersendiri. From the ‘westernized’ Dania Dashrin to the new Nur Dania Dashrin. Better. Way better.

Nak dipendekkan cerita, hero dalam cerita ni (boleh ke panggil hero? Bolehlah), Lee aka Badlee dalam ni lebih kurang je macam Ashraff Omar, bezanya AO main skate, Lee main instrument. AO budak business, Lee budak mechi. AO Aussie, Lee Scotland, Aberdeen. AO typical Malay teenager, grown up in typical Malay-born-kid culture, Lee, third culture kid. AO memang totally habis pusing rotate 180 degree. So was Lee after being ‘clorox’ed (boleh ke?) dengan Jade, atas permintaan Dash.

So was Dash. Lebih kurang jugak macam Minn Edina aka Ed Sassin. Baca balik perenggan atas pastu buat ayat sendiri pasai depa dua orang ni. Sebenaqnya lupa pasal Minn Edina. Versus ada kat rumah. Haih. -.-'

Berhenti lama kat part ni.

“Kena ada dzatiyah, mujahadah dan istiqamah. Dan benda tu bukan ikut flowchart. Tapi lebih pada satu bulatan yang tak ada permulaan dan pengakhiran.”

“We need that continuity to maintain our sanity.”

“Uh…dzatiyah tu apa?”

“Dzatiyah tu macam inner-push. Kita punya self-motivation. Kuasa kendiri.” Trisy menjelaskan.

“Sebab yang nak berubah dan mengubah tu diri kita, kan? Maka kuasa tu perlu kita harapkan dari dalam diri kita sendiri. Takkan nak harapkan orang lain kut, ye tak?”

Dash angguk. Betul la. Takkan nak harapkan orang kut? Kalau nak, kena la berusaha mencari. Mana nak tunggu bulan jatuh ke riba. Jatuh-jatuh pun bulan ke riba, nak mati? Tau bulan tu besar mana? Betul la kata orang, be very careful of what you wish for.

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“The chains of habit are too light to be felt until they’re too heavy to be broken.”

Macam polymer. Repeating units of monomer. Do exist due to its special characteristic. Macam tayar kereta.

Sungguh.

Sungguhlah, hati manusia Allah yang pegang.

To be judged of what you were is just unfair as a butterfly being judged while it was a caterpillar. Tapi caterpillar comel apa. Eh.

“Don’t be in such a hurry to condemn a person because he doesn’t do what you do, or think as you think or as fast. There was a time when you didn’t know what you know today”

“Malcolm X said that” – Haikal

“That was I, this is me.” – Dash

Banyak je lagi part-part sentap tahap hiris bawang, terhantuk meja kepala benjol, tersedak tertelan bertih jagung dan pedas tahap 120% pure concentrated wasabi. Nak rasa? baca sendiri, then.