"Remember that whatever lives in the hearts control you. It becomes what you strive for and are willing to sacrifice anything to have. And to keep, it becomes what you depend on at a fundamental level. It therefore, must be something eternal, that never tires, and never breaks. It must, therefore, be something that never leaves.
Only one thing is like that:
-Yasmin Mogahed, Reclaim Your Heart
Tbh, tak habis pun lagi baca Reclaim Your Heart ni. Macam-macam yang menuntut.
Gap yang aku wujudkan antara aku dan kau sedikit sebanyak beri ruang untuk aku kembali ke dunia nyata. Pada aku, 'that's it'. We can't continue this any longer. I care too much and I ended up hurting both of us. Jadi, aku mula rasa gap tu sesuatu yang aku wajib wujudkan. Patutnya dari dulu lagi.
Then, there it goes. Aku mula rasa get used to it. I almost feel like all the memories with you inside are all dreams. Mimpi yang ridiculous. And my soul can bear that fact.
Cumanya, lately. Aku mula rasa that 'wall' I've created before starts to fade away, it starts to crumble. Well, normal people would just be happy about it, right?
But for me, it is just plainly painful.
Because you are not real.